Today has been a struggle. The whole weekend has been, actually. I keep waking up in the mornings fantasizing about a particular student. The idea popped into my head a couple of days ago, and now she keeps flashing into my mind.
The mornings have been the worst though. I let myself indulge in the fantasy even though I know it’s not doing me any favors.
This weekend is also a weekend in which my wife and I haven’t had sex, so all of the built up sexual energy I have from these fantasies are going nowhere. Pretty hard to stay strong, but I’m glad I haven’t succumbed to looking the girl up on Facebook since I’ve started thinking about her. That’s some small relief, I guess.
Just need to get through the night…not relapsing today…not going back to day one…