Day 1 / Day 57
by recoveringpornguy
I’m slipping.
Last night I intentionally looked at porn. I have seen things I consider porn recently and decided not to reset either my pornfree or NoFap badges (badges available on subreddits to help keep track). But last night was different. I actually intentionally sought a particular type of porn and kept clicking around until I found what I was looking for (obviously, that didn’t take long).
So now my progress counters are split: back to day one for my actual porn recovery, and still going strong for not fapping as a result.
Two little images. Such a pathetic payoff for resetting my progress.
Recovering Porn Guy 
Okay, but why are you surfing porn? Why did you slip and what are you going to do to prevent it from happening again?
“but why are you surfing porn?”
Not to be glib, but the answer is “because I’m a porn addict.”
I slipped because I have been fantasising a lot recently and failing to follow my own advice about how to deal with triggers. I also slipped because I was tired and haven’t previously identified that as a real trigger…but I should acknowledge that and deal with it by going to bed.
To prevent it from happening again…follow my own advice again. I also need to pray about this more. I have become complacent in this aspect of my faith recently.
I admire you for at least acknowledging that you need to stop. not many can do that
Hey mate,
how is your journey going?